Sensei Diablo checking :P

Just an update of sorts, yes I not posted a story for a while I am working on a special 2nd part to Jade and Hizuka's wedding plus making notes for a story for as a prize for her entruy to the artjam, plus trying to find the will to enter all the other artjams and contests out there, the ideas are there just it seems right now not the will to do it

Health wise I am in my 4th week back at work, not full time and I think I shall be staying on the 4 day weeks for a while while I get some degree of strength and stamina back as these days frankly I would lose a fight to a budgie!

Dialysis continues to be actually kind of interesting, I am one of those that fears what they don't understand and as such learn as much as I can about treatment so I don't panic.  I have had 4 "blows" that is where due to back pressure or a slightly out of line needle my fistula splits, my arm fills with blood and looks like I have been hit with a baseball bat for a week or two.

They are a fact of life on Dialysis the nurses do not have x ray vision when putting the 2 needles in its all done by touch, however I am now on the biggest capacity needles and they are gradually bringing up the pump force and other linked items to clear my blood toxin levels further, been refused 2 benefits on the grounds of "you don't qualify fo X reason" to be fair the reasons were valid but I meet the dreaded ATOS inspector next wednesday if I pass that I can get anywehere between £50 to £150 per week depending on the report from the ATOS rep to the DWP who then decide on wether my seriosuly bad artheritis that has gotten worse on dialysis due to my body rejecting calcium so my ones are made weaker, sitting down, standing up and walking any distance after 40 metres is an exercise in not yelping on pain  On the plus side barring 2 dicks for brains at work everyone has been really supportive of me

I am not out of the woods yet but its getting easier in some ways, the best bit is that due to my body's inablility to manage its temperature properly, I sweat a lot at work even when it is cold, now this may not sound like fun or a good thing, and no its not in some ways but for one thing, sweating reduces the fluid levels in my body, the less fluid they have to take off me when I have treatment the easier it goes and the less wasted I feel, plus its better for my health not to have my blood getting full of water because my kidenys have packed up.

One person asked how I was doing to day then apologised saying it was a daft question, my response "I am upright, still breathing and still going.. JUST! ANything else is a side detail"